Thursday, October 14, 2010

Ek Din Achanak...

It is 2 hours past midnight, on the 14th of October 2010, while I wake up to write this 'untimely' entry…

Just 15-20 minutes back I switched off my computer and went to bed. I was just lying down and going through my phone’s message inbox, deleting the many chat messages and other rubbish forwarded ones. I kept my phone on the ‘Do not disturb’ mode and prepared to sleep. The day’s events crossed my mind. Waking up-finishing chores-starting with my college assignments-facebook-shopping in the evening-work after dinner-facebook again-and then sleep. Somehow I felt there was something missing…

I tried to rewind my past few weeks at college and my social life. I had been chosen as the Best Blogger-had delivered Chatur’s Speech from 3 Idiots at college on Teachers’ Day-had become an integral part of MBITEC-had attended all lectures-had loved each one of them-had got loads of assignments-had always tried to complete them on time-had made loads of new friends and some really good friends in a very short span of knowing each other-had made frequent visits to Select Citywalk and DLF Place-had enjoyed college life to the utmost-had never allowed any kind of a compromise with my studies-in short, I was doing really well in my professional as well as my personal lives. But now somehow I felt there was something missing…

I lay in bed thinking…

The past few days have been really exhaustive for me. After reaching home I got busy in completing the batch website that I was designing for my school-mates and almost every day I spent 7-8 hours in front of the computer doing just that. On 10/10/10 at 10:10 AM the site was launched and on receiving the rave reviews I felt satisfied that I had done a good job at it. Then I saw ‘4’ days of my vacation left and started with all my college work. At that time it seemed to be an easy task, but now I am craving for more time to do all the pending assignments! This was something that had never happened to me in school. I was always the teacher’s favorite and completing the work before time was my hobby! Surely there is something missing now…

I am in deep thought…

Three months back at this time I and all my friends were sitting at our homes, idle, having nothing at all to do. The long vacation that we had received after the Boards in March was no longer welcoming. We had wanted college to start as soon as possible. Long telephonic conversations and friendly chats were like our daily bread and a day with no conversation, due to any unlikely reason, meant that the next day’s talks were double dipped! (Yes, you guessed it right; it’s the new KBC terminology!)

And then our colleges started. Each one of us went in different directions…in different courses…in different colleges…in different locations…in different parts of the country…some far away and some close-by. But of course, we had promises to keep…promises of meeting as often as possible…promises of not losing touch with each other…promises of talking on every opportunity we got…promises…and promises…and promises…

But somewhere in our paths we have become very busy…really busy. So busy that we have no time for anything. Citing my own instance, I have been at home since the last 10 days but I haven’t had even a single good long conversation with my parents (because ‘I have been too busy’ with my work!!) and now it’s time for me to leave tomorrow (and I might not be meeting them for the next 7-8 months!!). I have enough balance in my cell but haven’t even once called up any of my good school friends; in fact I have ignored calls from many because ‘I have been too busy’ and not thought of giving a call-back. I have many friends and family-friends living nearby but I haven’t even once thought of paying them a visit because ‘I have been too busy’. This blog of mine, which used to have almost 4-5 good entries every month, now rarely has an update because ‘I have been too busy’. The rare new entry that comes up, has no comments, not even ‘one’ from any of my ‘eighteen’ followers because probably like me all my ‘friends have been too busy’ as well!!

There has been a big change somewhere, and I am yet to discover that. Probably if one of my dear friends reads this entry, he/she might try and address this dilemma of mine. And I really hope that this ‘dear friend’ is YOU, the one who is reading this right now! I hope ek din achanak I get your comments!

It is 3 hours past midnight now, on the 14th of October 2010, and I am now going back to sleep… 
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  1. Anonymous said...
    Hi
    Wht u wrote hr ws in no way a deficit in ur lyf............. It z jst a way f lyf 4 each f us........ V get in2 a different typ f lyf......... n though initially v dont find tym 4 each ohtr.... soon v learn 2 adjust... n bcum happy 2 b in such lives wid tym 4 othrs n a gud social lyf.............
    Pallabi

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  2. hey antarik...good that u chose something u love to do. this busyness has a purpose. so relax. it is not that something is missing...perhaps u are trying to find something u havent tumbled across yet. mil jayega...have an awesome life. be happy always

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  3. its a weird thing yaar 1;30
    whn u r wid thm, its hard to part... as in jo hamare bye-bye moments they, i knw u rem those ache se...

    tab hamare paas kuch nahi tha, as in no imediate future to luk forward to... and we were enjoying our present so much, tht v jst clinged to it and jst hated the fact tht v hv to leave this world and enter a new "khaufnak" scenario

    ab jab ham college mein aaye hain, n v see tht this life is not SO different frm wht it used to b... as in dost toh hain ab, par woh same dost nahi hain jo pehle they
    but the foundation is the same naa....

    tujhe main thoda toh jaanta hun ki yeh keh sakun tht NOW u like to gt involved jaldi se becuz u knw the fun in jst being in the moment... u knw wht i mean ryt

    bas, ab pehle jaisi baat nahi hai, bhale hi cheezein toh wahi hain...
    dost hain, par new ones
    padhai hai, bt new ones
    ideas hain, pranks hain, jokes hain, sab hai... par puraani cheezein jo tujhe yaad hain, waisi nahi hain aur wohi same nahi hai... nayi hai

    live in the moment dude... :)

    -mangu

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  4. antarik gud to hear that you are enjoyin now...
    keep enjoying and having fun...

    mangu ne pehli baar sahi baat kari hai

    live the moments by being in it...
    :):)


    -A.R.K

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  5. hey bhaiya


    its the same feeling im havng ryt nw wen i think of my future........
    but its part of lyf.....

    so njoi it to the fullest.
    :):):):)


    -harsh

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  6. Thank you everyone for your support!
    And I am really happy to see so many unexpected people commenting here on my blog! :)

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  7. Life takes so many turns- sometime quite unexpectedly. And each turning point leads us in a different direction. It is very natural and there is nothing to be disturbed about it. What you are passing through is termed, in modern management terminology, as "work life imbalance". What you need is to manage your 24 hrs in such a manner that you maintain a well judged balance among your work, social life and personal life. I think major Social activities may be allocated to week ends and work should be given priority in weekdays. Personal life is to be taken care of everyday. I am sure as time passes you will learn everything. Experience is the greatest teacher. For he time being just relax and continue with your studies as a priority. Rest of the things will take care of themselves in due course.
    People come and go in an individual's life. Things change in a continual manner. Change is inevitable and needs to be accepted without questioning. LIVING IN THE PRESENT IS THE SURE SHOT WAY TO HAPPINESS.
    Be happy and enjoy life. God bless you.

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  8. i think der's nothing missing......
    actually its just tat we have been too busy with OURSELVES only, in short may be we hav become very selfish!!!!
    but its not a problem, i thnk it happens with everybody....
    its good to keep in touch with everybody but wat is important is tat u r enjoying ur life to d fullest........
    n gud luck. tc.

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  9. hey antarik, its true............. we all have bcom so preoccupied with our own lives that we forget that there are some people whom we really need to luk upon........... jst see, how gud frenz we were........ but now, u there, we here n our responsibilities n duties are overloaded on us to such an extent that I hardly get time to chk ur msgs n ur blogs. But sumhow, i took out time to read ur blogs though i haven't written 4 myself 4 3 months........ Whatever it may be, we aren't going to separate however busy we may be....... yeah.... do give time to ur li'l sister too........

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  10. well finally i read ths....nd thnk god!!!! Ye sabki prblm hai.....warna i ws strtng 2 thnk smthng z hpng wrng wth me....like othrs i wnt tell u 2 live in d moment....coz sabhi bol chuke hain....nd wat m nt doin i wnt tell u 2 do...bt i wud surely say TRY 2 TO DO WATEVER U WANNA Do...dnt thnk abt wat athrs wil thnk..commit mistakes....coz abhi galti nahi karoge to sathiane k baad karoge kya....no matter how mch big mistake u commit...dnt thnk abt it...jo ho gaya wo hona hi tha...bt juz dnt repeat it...coz dats bewakufi nt galti...nd itna mat socha kar...MAZE KAR!!!! WASTE TIME....dnt use it thnkng abt urslf...:P

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  11. thanks all! :)
    May I pls knw who u r Mr Anonymous??

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